Nonsensical Dream

I often fly in my dreams these days.

Last night I dreamt that I was flying low to the ground over a school field then had difficulty getting any altitude when I flew alongside a road, but managed to soar a little when I entered an orchard. For some reason though spider webs and their inherent spiders kept getting in my way as I worked my way skyward through the pink blossom-laden branches.

Then I woke up.

What can this dream mean? I haven't the foggiest idea.

If Only I Had a Brain

Oh my poor befuddled brain. I can't seem to function today. Just trying to match payments to invoices seems to be beyond me. Ugggh. And I'm about to embark on preparing the PST & GST tax remittances. Please, please brain, work for just an hour this afternoon. I'm begging - PRETTY PLEASE with sugar on top.

It was around this time last year, under very similar circumstances that I totally botched up the GST remittance. I'll have to be very, very careful not to do that again. Focus, concentrate. Breathe.

This morning I found myself confused while making lunches. Really, how difficult is it to assemble a sandwich and two light snacks? According to what actually made it to work in my lunch bag - very difficult. I also think I'd better make a beeline home after work. I don't recall turning off the DVD player/TV in the bedroom this morning. The theme music for North & South will drift down the hallway to greet me when I open the front door tonight.

I wonder how dinner preparation will go tonight? Could be interesting.

Facebook Rant

I'm considering removing myself from facebook. It seems like such a waste of time and I find myself feeling ticked-off with people I don't even keep in touch with. Perhaps I should de-friend all the people from my past that I don't have any involvement with anymore, just keep the very few that I'm close to and of course family members. Maybe I just shouldn't let it bother me at all and get on with living. I love to see photos of friends I do keep in touch with so I don't want to miss out on that.

I feel hurt when old schoolmates de-friended me. I don't know what I've done to cause them to de-friend me and perhaps they're just cleaning house and don't feel the need to keep in touch anymore. Who knows?

I've even found that it has soured gifts that I've treasured all these years. For example I've had a Christmas tree decoration from KH from probably grade 9. She has just de-friended me on facebook and I feel rather hurt. What the hell!? Tempted to dig out the Christmas decorations and chuck her present in the bin. Take that! Like she could care less; but I don't want to see the decoration again - what's the point? I certainly don't want a reminder of her on my Christmas tree ever again. Sheesh.

Healthier Habits

I've been trying to eat healthier foods lately. Of course one's definition of a healthy food varies from person to person - my aim is to reduce my junk food intake. Things like pop, chips, fries, greasy items, cookies, etc. My view of food has also changed. I'm finally coming to the realisation that everyday is not 'feast day.' While getting healthy is my goal, losing some weight in the meantime would be nice.

I'm quite happy with my efforts to make healthier choices. Last night, for example, when I was yearning for something sweet, namely icecream or cookies, I managed to use some self-control and ate a banana instead. I'm celebrating all my small victories these days - life's too short not to.

Tonight I think I'll excercise. Don't laugh. Because I haven't been very active lately I'll have to begin with a very light workout. Some stretching, light cardio, more stretching: probably go for a walk with Daryle and Daniel after work.

Super Nose

SUPER NOSE has returned. Ugghh.

This seems to be my usual first indication of being pregnant. My normally non-smelly rather nasally challenged world vanishes and is replaced with a terribly smelly nauseating one. Let me explain a little: compared to most people I usually have a very poor sense of smell, the scent needs to be quite strong for me to notice it.

On the weekend I could barely stand to be in the house. The garbage needed to be taken out and even after it was gone I couldn't get the place aired out. An hour later, with all the windows open, the stench lingered - something like rotting onion. Even the lovely chicken curry I'd made a few days ago had taken on a putrid smell. I've had to chuck it as there's absolutely no way I can put it on a plate in front of me let alone place it in my mouth.

Clothing and fabrics have taken on a new smelliness. My bad habit of leaving a load in the washer overnight has meant that most of my wardrobe has a slightly musty smell. Ick. I can't even sleep in my own bed or on the couch without smelling IT. Everything smells musty: pajamas, pillowcases, couch cushion covers, etc. I'll have to break out the Febreeze to deodorize the furniture and do a lot of laundry for all the other items. Seriously considering buying new couch cushions - they really need to be replaced anyways. Oh, I mustn't forget to buy a bunch of new kitchen cloths, mine have all suddenly vanished into the garbage, noxious stinky things!

Even gardening has become disgusting. I never knew the terrible stench it creates. Reaching over to pluck a weed and - ewwwwwww, what the heck is that cat-pee-like smell? Just my paperwhites in bloom; who knew they stunk so much? The earth smells, the flowers smell and not all in a nice way, even the air smells (I think I can now catch a whiff of the neighbourhood skunk). My dear lovely garden, reduced to a stinky pile of ickiness. I don't think I'll be out there as much in the near future.

Along with Super Nose a workplace hazard has presented itself. My little office is located at the very back of the office near the washrooms. Normally, I'm the best person for this location (can't smell much), but with Super Nose I'm being tortured. I wonder if my co-workers will notice me jumping up to turn the washroom fans on constantly? June 1st, my announcement date, is a long way down the road - I'll have to endure things as best I can until then.